Still Here

It’s almost St. Patrick’s Day. Which for me isn’t about wearing green or watching a parade. It’s not even about eating a green bagel or green cookie. It’s about Nanny’s birthday. Because that was on March 17th. She would have been 100 years old this year. I’m still not used to the fact that she’s not here. But in a way she is here. Because now I’m Nanny. I have two beautiful grandchildren who call me Nanny. And the crazy thing is when I talk to them I sound like her. I hear her in my own voice, in the way I speak to them. “Come here, my angel,” I hear her say. But it’s not her voice I hear, it’s my voice. But it is her voice. And when I am taking so much pleasure in just sitting on the floor playing with them, I feel like she is sitting there too. I see her sitting with my son, her great grandson, and I see how she would help him learn. She was a natural teacher. She knew how to make every child feel important. And smart. And loved. So, even though she isn’t here, she is with me whenever I am being Nanny. Which means she never really left me.

10 thoughts on “Still Here

  1. How sweet! I found your post very timely. Yesterday was my Nama’s 86th birthday and she just passed a few weeks ago. It was a tough hurdle but I feel her near me every day. I guess I should say your slice spoke to me and I connected to it. I liked it and the name Nanny! So very sweet. I think you wrote that this was your first year doing the SOL challenge, so welcome! You’re in the right place 🙂

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  2. Thank you for sharing something so special: ) Happy 100th birthday to Nanny this year! It’s great that she is still here with you all and you are reminded of her daily.

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  3. This is such a nice story! I will sometimes see one of my parents in myself. It’s startling, and wonderful, and weird all at the same time. I love how you captured the beauty of it. Welcome to the SOLC!

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  4. Nanny’s are the best. I have a Nanny in my life. She is 97 and nearing the end of her time on our world. Your post made me smile. I hope that when Nanny goes, part of her will stay with me like your Nanny has stayed with you.

    Thank you for sharing this!

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  5. This is so lovely. I am thinking about my grandmother today. Tomorrow is her birthday. She would have been 116 (or, if you prefer the way she revised her history, 114!). I miss her … but, like you, I see and hear her often. She stays with me. Welcome to the Slice of Life Challenge. I look forward to reading more of your posts through the month! 🙂

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